For All That You Did

You always liked me best Maybe because I was the little girl You and me played together We were inseparable Mommy thought we were too close She tried to separate us She said you were evil in the way you played You told me it was OK You were like my father So I believed every word you said We continued to play together And you told me not to tell mommy Now that I’m older I realize that you were evil Evil in the way you played And evil in the way you lied You told me it was OK You said mommy wouldn’t be mad You said that’s how all daddies’ play Except you weren’t my daddy You were just a figure That was there to play You were supposed to play with mommy Not with her little girl Mommy loved you So she didn’t yell Instead it was my fault She sent me away I was sent away For what you did Mommy thought it was my fault She said I was too pretty You not only hurt mommy But you hurt me In ways that can’t even be expressed In ways that will never go away You scarred me You stole something That I can never get back You took the one thing that I was saving Saving for that special someone You said you were that someone I didn’t believe you But you didn’t care You took in upon yourself To be that someone You stole it And I want it back I know that can never happen So I pretend it never did I blocked you out of my life And I hoped you would never return But there you were Standing alone You said she sent you To do her a favor Her favor was more like your own You thought I was ready I knew I wasn’t You didn’t care You took it anyway It wasn’t available But you didn’t care You wanted it and took it I thought you loved me? That is what you said to me How can I love you? You hurt me in ways I thought no one could All I ask now Is why? Why me? Was there something I did? Was there something provoking you? What was it? If you can take that away You owe me an explanation You don’t deserve to be in jail Or to be beat up You should be dead I want you dead. Written October 8th, 2001 © on Oct 08 2001 06:22 AM PST   0 • 1