Cut Deep

I sit here tonight confused The facts of reality have cut deep I suddenly realize that I must face The possibility that everything I know is a lie Could it really be that I have Wasted my life away for nothing For I've given my all And find I have less to show for it It begins to look as though Life is not what it outward seems And yet that is what They try to teach me to know I sit here tonight confused The facts of reality have cut deep I suddenly begin to wonder Has my heart been ripped away for the last time Could it really be that She was the last to have it That I've given it to her And that she'll never bring it back It begins to look as though When she ripped it from my chest She never intended to return But this I don't know I sit here tonight confused The facts of reality have cut deep I suddenly realize that I don't know Whether I am to come or go Could it really be that I was never meant to come here That this is not the place for me And that my fate leads me elsewhere It begins to look as though I should be somewhere else Doing something better But what I don't know I sit here tonight confused The facts of reality have cut deep I suddenly turn my thoughts And I begin to think of my friend Could it really be that She's going to die That I will have to learn To face this world without her by my side It begins to look as though I'll have to learn again To live and how to do it alone For what disease she has we don't know The facts of reality have cut deep And left me sitting here tonight confused My life is a lie But the truth evades me Whenever I search My heart is crushed But the search for it's return Has borne no fruit I wonder of my place But deep down I know It's not here It's all very hard But I find it more so now Without her at my side My friend I call Hopethere is nothing left to say.... Written January 22nd, 2002 © on Jan 22 2002 04:49 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1