Nay I Will Never Know

I feel as though I am out of the loop. I feel as though nobody cares anymore. I feel as thought the person I loved, now just doesn’t give a damn. When was the last time you called me? Messaged me? Emailed me? Could it be about a week and a half ago? When was the last time you seemed to care? Could it be about a month ago? When was the last time you showed me you loved me? Could it be about a month ago? When was the last time you told me you did love me? Could that have been never? So now what? You don’t call, you don’t talk. You don’t acknowledge im here? Do you know what it is to love a girl? Do you know what it is to go out with someone? To show them you care. do you know at all. Sure I could call you. That would be taking the easy way out. For it was me who always called you wasn’t it? Yes it was me and me alone. When was the last time you told me you tried? Is it because you are stuck in your own world? When I put you first like I am supposed to, do you do the same? I doubt it. No is enough for you, no fighting for it, no saving it. Yet when was the last time you embraced me? Told me everything would be ok? Why am I still here? Why do I take this mental abuse? Why do I sit here wasting my days waiting for YOU to come around? Nor will I ever know, thank you for that, I do love you so, even if you don’t know, even if you don’t show, more that you will ever know, actions come on too slow, let your feelings flow, nay, I will never know… It is said that a good woman and a good book are both good to have. You can put the book away on the shelf to read later,but never put away a good woman, for she will not be there for you later!! -Lee Butler   previous entry : Wake Up! Written February 11th, 2002 © on Feb 11 2002 01:51 PM PST    10 • 0 • 1