Lost Forevers

I wanted to let go of all the time we spent together put it in the past and to never look back how do I know when to say the final goodbye when to walk away, end the last chapter    anger dissipates and the healing begins pictures, songs or just a scent can bring tears to my eyes memories of the good times are at the forefront of my mind hiding and denying the pain that brought me to this place in time wanting to erase it all and leave it behind wishing I could feel whole, stand on solid ground needing to fill the emptiness that is holding me down trying to smile while yearning for the familiarity of your touch knowing down deep in my soul I would be going back where I was unhappy and gave you all I had to give but was left alone by myself to cry you speak the words now that I wanted to hear for so long but why did you wait until I was gone I question if people really do change and how to get back to the time our love was so simple if only it were easy to take it all back the screaming, the anger, the hurt and pain and now you tell me your holding on by a thread but that string is raveled and frayed beyond repair you say that we were meant to be together  if only I could predict what the future holds but all I see are a thousand lost forevers Written December 7th, 2001 © on Dec 07 2001 07:31 AM PST   0 • 8