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space zero empty set void before possibility add something a prescence surrounded by absence enveloped in space not empty but alone together with emptiness a small point in the infinite void can't move if it did no way to tell existing only nowhere in particular is there possibility is there Ah, but *I* see it all so I am there too Let me be that presence possibility is there possibility reducing all i know to the one and the none in my head its in my head its my head then before the none or the none and the one it's my head. after some minutes staring into nothingness i completely disappeared then I was bored so there would be the *one* this time me and the one in the none focussing completely on that I became one alone alone just me and the none bored with that I see I get bored so bored so easily WHATness and WHYness WHOness are YOUness? then create a question and answer it IT eats you completely well except for possibility eaten I am truly confused eaten I am truly confused. Now I am truly confused. these words useless trash long dead gone and so doomed ideas hover around them apparitions entombed when i try to understand the most simple of simple things simple extremes not so simple it seems you dissect yourself seek meaning you must die first... you must die first in auto-autopsy how absurd.... pointless... stupid. leaning back I used to enjoy quest for meaning. Something gone terribly wrong at least i can stop here whew feel a bit better now. Feel a LOT better. What a trip almost lost it there for a min Ok now what was i doing before this happened before this before this no memory=8-] i wanted each line to be a statement in and of itself thoughts connected at times somewhat weakly by this thread that is me Written February 11th, 2002 © on Feb 11 2002 02:03 PM PST   0 • 13