Overcame Her

Loneliness and despair overcame me, The feelings were too intense, they threatened, Send me spiraling into a never-ending darkness. To my mind, where I have no defense. Hate and pain spilled over me, Like the blue waves of the ocean. Crushing my fragile state of mind, Overloading my every emotion. My eyes came open, I stared. Crying to cool the raging hate, That threatened to consume me. To destroy my future and burn my faith. Loneliness crept into my heart, And I always think about life alone, Without companionship, without love. To be forever on my own. Memories. Could Haves. The guilt, and all the wrong choices. Couldn’t stop them, they were too strong. I had underestimated the voices. I wasn’t going to get anywhere, In the darkness of my mind, Except to get myself killed. But there is nothing I would leave behind. I never used my head, When it was my own protection. Always running and I would never face, My only fears of total rejection. Had to be free of the nagging heartache, Finally, I would be away, From loneliness and despair going deeper into my heart with each passing day. The blood crawling down my arm, Flowing from my severed wrist, So dire I had wanted it to end. Pretend I never really did exist. I lived so long in the emotion flood, Until now where I lay, Lifeless, and covered in blood. I couldn’t take it one more day. © on May 31 2001 06:36 AM PST   0 • 1