who am i now?

"Today might just be the day I have waited for, prayed for, hoped for. I want so much for this day to be free of wonderings. How will I do this? How will I be able to do that? Who can help me with this..."

"I remember when I was a child and my parents seemed so old. And my grandparents really seemed ancient. And how I believed I would never be that old. And if I got to be that old, then surely, I would d..."

"i cannot show my feelings. i musn't show my feelings. that's what i was always told. so now after all these years--- i have hidden all my feelings. i cannot show;i musn't show. now i don't even know w..."

"Have you ever wanted something? Have you ever waited for something for so long? And then when it arrives or it happens, you can't believe it! It's like you go into shock, your mind can't comprehend th..."

"You know, there are people who don't want to be helped. They want everyone to leave them alone. Maybe they're addicted. Maybe they have convicted themselves. Who knows? But they just don't want to be ..."

"My friend died recently. Losing her hit me in an overwhelming way. I remember crying and thinking it couldn't be. But she had died. And that was the harsh reality. She helped me, my friend, when I ha..."