Almost Didn't

The day I met you I almost didn’t I didn’t want to meet someone new Didn’t think I needed anyone I wanted to run away and hide Give up on life and just disappear My heart was in tatters My soul had been scoured raw I hated myself and everyone else But I got dressed up as fine as I could I did my hair and fixed my face Pasted a plastic smile upon my lips And told myself that I would be gone In time for only one drink I laughed at the jokes my friends told And almost bolted out the door When I realized that you weren’t there But I thought I could wait a few more minutes Then when my friend shouted your name I was scared to look up and see you Figured that I would have to make an excuse To leave and never come back Finally I looked and saw your face I saw the same fears and apprehensions Etched on your face too The first hello was a little strained But you smiled and I smiled back And the ice slowly started to melt The minutes turned into hours I knew that I had found a friend A battle scarred soul like me That needed a safe haven from life The hours turned to days I seen more of you and got to know you The more I knew the more I liked I slowly fell into this blissful state Now the days has turned to months And I couldn’t be happier You bring so much joy to my life And to think I almost didn’t meet you at allJust some personal reminiscing....... Written April 14th, 2002 © on Apr 14 2002 02:04 PM PST, Tami Ellis   18 • 0 • 8