Desperate For Strength

Here I dream of skipping rocks across the seaWishing on all the stars how this never had to beYet here I stand open, these judgeful eyes now seeIt seems when I'm most fragileThe world turns it's back on meI wake from these lonely dreamsHere inside some hole in which I fellI feel this coldness in my heartI feel the worlds all gone to hellWhy do I find myself always returning to the question whyWhat made me think I'de simply get awayHere in this hell it never helps to cryWhen I still wonder how it got this waySomething still wakes me in the dead of sleepThis fear of never wanting to know whyWhy the reflection in the mirror I no longer recognizeWhile that child inside me starts to cryForgive me for I can't find the strength to struggle onKnowing every time I'm weak I make all the same mistakesAll this time I never cared to take a chanceI know that weakness is the one thing I most hateI can't sit here trying to understand just exactly where I went wrongI can't stand to act so happy when inside I feel such sorrowI wish to die knowing somethings really thereWishing for that strength to make it through tomorrowThese fragile souls in a world off balanceAnd the things I touch now lie in pieces in these handsMaybe I just wanted so dearly to reach your heartMaybe I can't keep hoping that you'll somehow understandPlease forgive me I've lost confidence in all this worldWhen I must know all the failure I createThe times of true joy, I'd give the world to just go backAll this negativity I grow so much to hateSuicide never seemed so greatBut I can't let anyone else live with my tragedyI never imagined I could ever end up this wayRight now I need to find the lost hope inside of meI never thought that all I did at one time, I said I'd never doWhy did I ever want any part of thisI know all they tried to save me from, I've let myself becomeOnce so new and untouched that inncence I missIm so crushed please won't you hold me tightDon't let me go for my time is coming fastAnd there I was so close to this conclusionNow my lifes in total contrastSo the worlds turned upside downAs I pretend to be a star so far and highWhen the day comes the clouds will fill with rainYou'll know just how it endsWhen teardrops fall in this dungeon benath the skyI've returned to the stars once againThe Lonely PoetOct 12th 1999, Congratulations I bet you want a prize after reading this hunk of lines. Well I had allot of emotion that needed to get out. So for those of you that made it this far..tell me what you think, to me it's seems foreign things have changed so much since then. Enjoy~Dream Written September 17th, 2001 © on Sep 17 2001 08:07 AM PST   0 • 1