Suicide

where have you gone i search aimlessly my heart thumps with the power of a thousand doves caramel candy rests on my bedside table remnant of our sweet beginnings sucked of all its magic i again have misplaced my life you weren't swallowed in the confusion it isn't possible i need you here alongside me you have left me before oh, how it hurt temporarily lacking a soul mate now you are gone once more and it kills being without you maybe you only ran away what they say cant be true i wont let it be so i talked to you just yesterday you seemed as though you loved yourself once more the hard times finally over then this what went wrong, hon? you are so brilliant cant you see how many love you and care? it isn't true i saw you YESTERDAY this isn't you in this self-induced slumber it isn't you killed me alongside you that gun pierced my soul before penetrating your skin how am i supposed to cope? you are all i ever had all i ever needed you are me, i am you it cant be true the police, they lied to me this picture of a blissful girl... the pills, the blood, it isn't real this doesn't happen to people you know people you love time has exorcised the demon in both of us only i am here to reflect upon it you ARE alive,babe i saw you only yesterday you were so happy, too this person being lowered into heaven is not my kindred spirit' i look, maybe it is me being introduced to the Ultimate a girl can hope yet somebody has to be in there because it isn't you it cant be you for i talked to you just yesterdaydont worry, this isnt based on a true story...:) Written July 2nd, 2000 © on Dec 13 2001 01:52 PM PST, Nichole   18 • 0 • 1