Eating my Soul
By Ginger
my heart is filled with darknes, my life consumed by fear, my soul is black as ink, my eyes overflow with tears. i thought that i was getting better, but now i've gone back, i'm not sure what has happened, the present is again the past. i cannot sleep at night, my dreams turn into nightmares, i cannot close my eyes, the darkness is too much to bare. i have no appetite to eat, my throat it will not swallow, my stomach feels so full, and yet it is so hollow. i try to shrug away these feelings, i do not want them here, but i cannot shake them, my brain is consumed by fear. the tv is my comfort, so is this computer screen, i sit and lay down all day, i don't even have the power to scream. no one has noticed my despair, i wear long sleeves to hide the cuts, the cuts, yes the cuts, they are still there. and my fists are raw, and they are soar, i use them to beat out my frustrations on the door. i cannot explain what is happening, it's like something inside of me, eating my soul, and consuming my brain, like it will never let be be the same. Written November 10th, 2001 © on Nov 10 2001 08:42 AM PST 18 • 0 • 1
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