[So what am I supposed to do now]

So what am I supposed to do now         play church hymns in the darkness without you by my side You're not here with me         Hopefully you figured that out when I need you most The longest wait of my life         Only three weeks, but stretched out seems longer accompanied with pain Each day is what I imagine hell to be         Ultimately the loss of innocence In this place that's far from heaven So shrouded in abandonment will be my immediate future         Fate has already determined my destiny and that which is detached will confide in me There are so many tears to shed tonight         But if I let them go I'm admitting my loneliness tears of joy and dim thoughts Only your hand in mine can ease this confusion         Though you say it isn't so and illuminate my hazy eyes1997(?), Written January 8th, 2002 © on Jan 07 2002 04:54 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8