I Had To...

I had to back away,               for a while…           Did not want to,               sometimes, life takes us,                     and hands us pain…                         sometimes joy…                               sometimes uncertainty…           I built a wall, to protect myself…           For I had been hurt.               twice, in just a year’s time…           The first time, all I could do,               is accept the outcome…           I kept a little saying,               close at hand,                     we’ve all heard it;                         it goes something like this:                                           “God,                             GRANT me the SERENITY,                                       To ACCEPT                             The things I cannot change…                                     The COURAGE                             To change the things I can…                                   And the WISDOM                               To know the difference…”           It helped, especially at first,               for it gave me the strength,                     to do what I had to do…           The second hurt,               could still be changeable,                     if I allow…           If not,               I still must accept,                     and move on…           So I keep saying this, and at times the former saying:                         “If you love something, set it free…                           If it comes back, it is truly yours…                       If it does not, it may have never been…”           I know I must               let go for a while,                     and begin to accept what could be…           For if I don’t,               it will surely never return…           So I must close in               my emotions and my heart…           For they have been hurt,               tremendously…           Cover my love…           Reflect, within myself…           Find who I am…           For that is the only way…           Regardless of the outcome…               © Jonathan Wikkins November 14, 2001               Revised March 5, 2008               All Rights Reserved Written November 14th, 2001 © on Nov 14 2001 06:23 AM PST, David Michael Shurtleff   love • pain • personal • sad • thoughts