Just a Year Ago

Just a year ago,     I took you there.           and though I did not want to,               this time,                     I had to leave without you… A year… In some ways,     it seems so long… In others,     such a short time… For on that day,     I went there,           in your honor… That does not mean,     that I wish,           to hold on,               only that I honor                     your memory… I wish to release you     from my grip,           and ask,               that you release me                     from yours... Remember what you would say     all those years? You would say: “Deal with it, and move on…” Today, I wish to do so… It is time I moved on     with my life… Have I dealt with it?     I do not know… Have I begun to move on?     That I do not know either… Am I ready to move on?     Who knows? What I ask of you now,     is to allow me           the opportunity               to try… Please release me;     release your grip… Allow me,     to release mine… To release our love,     I have held onto           these many months… For I wish to allow someone else,     someone I feel           you have brought to me,               to have what we had. Please release me,     my love;           let me go… For I need to move on… I need to “deal with it and move on” Just please always know this:     deep in my heart of hearts… I will always love you… I will always miss you… I will always wish this had never happened…         And… I will always wonder, what was coming next for us… Farewell my love,     until the day,           we meet again… © Jonathan Wikkins November 13th, 2001 Revised February 10, 2008 All Rights Reserved Written November 13th, 2001 Revised February 10, 2008 © on Nov 13 2001 02:55 AM PST, David Michael Shurtleff   spiritual