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"When I gaze at the stars every night..trying so hard to lose the pain in their glory..I feel a presence beside me.. avenging my solitude.. Is that you? When I cry like crazy in the dark depths of the..."

"So many nights have gone by gazing at the stars so many days.. spent in a haze looking for you wishing you were here at least beside me if not for me as a semblance of sanity, as a means of escape fr..."

"Why did you vow about your love to me Why did you promise me so many things Why did you make my heart grow weak Why did you make me dream I was well and fine in my solitary world with my solo dreams ..."

"Survival ---that's the name of the game Ruthlessness -- guess that's the same Nothing's forever The present is all you can take There's nobody for you You are the only one for your sake Days will go ..."

"So many memories fly pass so many memories touch me by   not a tempest, not a pandemonium     just a feather light touch and a sigh   Of a lost world woven in melody Of times in a dreamy haze     of..."

"Pain is power Pain is strength Hatred, Horror, Angst, Disgust Feel the tremor in their lust! Eject the pain in my nerves Feel the high in the sigh! Ethereal feeling of infiniteness The world awaits t..."