My Story (part 1)

I sit alone looking at my life as if I was already dead.Blood  on everything I love.What did I do that was so wrong.I gave back my intentions.What more can I do?I tried to right all my wrongs.They wouldn't go back.Evil is in my blood.I was born to it.It was my only love for the longest time.Until him,I didn't know him all that well but know the hings he's done.ZPeople hes hurt.Scars he's made.But his love was for another.She also was the bd girl and loved him more than life.But I knew I could be better.I knew that love was all I could do.Until I got him to show me the way to hell.He showed me what could happen if i stoped caring.And hurt whoever I please.He showed me life is a game.And no one like us will ever lose.I knew then faith had let go of me then.I had lost all care for the world and the people I loved.But found I needed a great deal of him.All he knew was his cruel intentions.The people he had hurt.The lives of people who were fucked up and fucked over by him.He showed me his real pain when she broke his heart.He gave me a lot i'd like to give back.But I still rememeber these things.They run in me.They are me.But i've found away to look past the past.And come to see what his cruel intentions did to me.Yeas they made me who I am today.But they also gave me a life time of pain.I will never forget my intentions.Or how to hurt.Or the color that gave me the power to cause pain.But I have a new love intentions that are not cruel... Written April 1st, 2002 © on Apr 01 2002 12:39 PM PST   0 • 10