LoversBlackRose

"What is a remedy? What does it do? Can it help me? Or will it somehow kill me? No matter what can you help me? Can you save me from hell? Or just pull me in more. Whatever it does i wish it would happ..."

"With life comes love and hate... With love comes a soulmate... With a soulmate comes true love... With true love comes the boy of my dreams... Written June 6th, 2001 © on Mar 23 2002 02:04 PM PST ..."

"It only lasted a minute. And why i can not say. But I feel it when he touches me. It runs through me as blood. But it's better than blood. Could it be love or just me wshing it to be? But does he fe..."

"One more time the voices in my head say... Go ahead flea get it over with... And i'm tired of hearing it... I'm ready to give up... Words mean nothing... Life is no longer worth it... Lies are all we ..."

"I don't know what to think,what to say. I'm done with the world and its done with me. I'm lost in a world of my own. The one that would make things better. That could help me. That I could feel safe i..."

"Watching blue skys turn black with you. True meaning but nothings there. Do you really know someone? I know its him when I look him in the eyes. His eyes make the pain go away. His lips kiss every tea..."

"I say it each day when we are together and even when we are apart. The words come from my lips and the bottom of my heart. I can't help but wonder am I what he thinks of when he awakes each day. He is..."

"Have you ever had the urge to make yourself bleed? To watch blood fall from your arms. To taste blood from others as well from you. Blood as sweet as chocolate. Or as sour as your skin. Do you not fee..."

"Dressed in black comes death. I say goodbye with a tear in my eye. I do not want to let go of his hand. I looked into his eyes one last time. I felt the pain in my heart grow. I know that i'll never t..."

"It rained today but yet you where not next to me. I cry for a while and said even if he's not here, He's still in my heart. I feel so alive when it rains. But without you rain means nothing to me. Com..."

"The rain talks to me it tells me of my pain and hope. But it also tells me of love that has been givin to me. It tells me he not like any other boy. He's love and thats what i have been waiting for al..."

"Its hard to look at him and think what could have happened? What if he had died and I was left with nothing? It's hard to look at him and see what could have been. We could have been happy. The thre..."

"A young person... Not knowing what was once good for her has now killed her. The razor on the skin. Feel the pain run in her. Blood fall to the floor. But where did it come from? No fear when blood co..."

"Think of me when you all alone. Think of me when there people around. Think of me when rain comes down on you. Think of me when we're together. Think of me when we're apart. Think of me when you think..."

"Looking for power. Finding only pain. Feel it in your vains. Running in your blood. I gave it too you. Why do you deny it? Use what I have givin. Bring Back what I ask. Taste what I know you need...."

"Cruel intentions come to be. Games we play. Games you play but not with me. Reasons unknown we play these games. To get back at eachother maybe today. Unknown is our love for one another. My games end..."

"No one can understand what they can...No one can get inside my head better than them...There already there...One tells me the world is going to end....Another tells me that one day the love of my life..."

"Evil its all around can you feel it? I put it there we want the real you back. We want the evil thats in your heart to come back. Love has made you weak and helpless. We want you back stronger better...."

"Everyone around you is so happy. What are you going to do? Fake your smile then move on. Make everyone around you happy and then love no more. What makes you happy? Why will you wake up tomorrow? Will..."

"I love it when you say you love me and when you touch my hand. Something keeps telling me to wake up when your around. Cause you feel like a dream to me. Things have gotten better in my life because y..."

"Can't sleep just keep thinking bout things around me. They say that when you go to sleep and wake up thinking bout the same person your in love. Well I guess i'm in love and just scared to say it. To ..."

"I'm holding in my hand my way out. But so many people would hate me if I did it. But whats there pain next to mine? Who would hurt more? I bet it would be me if I stayed a minute longer. I loss for wo..."

"She denys me the two things I need. But I will get them. She denys me love and my soulmate. But no longer will I ask her for help. I can only trust myself. I can only look to me for help. She gives an..."

"Just becasue she hates everyone doesn't mean she evil. Even if she trys to kill me that doesn't mean she can't love. I call her vernoica. She is not like everyone else. She trys so hard to take my lif..."

"We don't really feel. Things are just what we are. Players in a game the we'll never win. This person would like to win. I will do anything down to givin in to hate. Even if i've already done so. A lo..."

"Sitting in the middle of nowhere. Wishing you where here with me. Crying cause your death broke me down. But i'll cry until we met again. Tears are only a sign of weakness. Why did you leave me? Why c..."

"I saw him today a little of my past. It blew me away to see how he'd changed. It scared me when he said my name. I looked at him and didn't even know what to say. An old crush staying before me. I rem..."

"What does death mean? Where will I go when I die? I want to know the answers to everything. I've gone crazy in my life. Things are always wrong in my life. But now things are all right. I just don't k..."

"Secrets lies and pain. Thats what my life has become. They played with my head made me evil again. It feels good to feel hate take over and not care anymore. They've taklen from me everything i love a..."

"I have the stuff to do it. Just two pills and a kiss goodbye. I want to I need to. No one can understand. The pain he placed on me. If it wasn't for the one I love I wouldn't be sitting here with tear..."

"I feel sick and helpless. Your not here to save me. Where have you gone? Away forever so you won't have to watch me die. I give to you my last goodbye and breath away my last words. To you my love my ..."

"I could sit here for hours and listen to the rain. But with out you it doesn't sound as beautiful. I could watch each star each night. Just to know you watching the same stars. Everytime I look to p..."

"Bloodstaind glass death to all. I did everything I could to please you. Will you kill me now. All alone in your little world. Scared to death of people and happiness. My bloodstaind hands should be yo..."

"I wanna be everthing in the world. But i'm just here and i'm just me. What have we become? Just a kid and death seems fun. Death a remedy for your pain. Things isn't what you want it to be. Unless you..."

"It only hurts alittle. Feel my heartbeat. Then it stoped. I gave my life for you. Will you remember me tomorrow? Or will I be the past gone by? Injected blood feel my pain. Take from me all my pain...."

"I sit alone looking at my life as if I was already dead.Blood  on everything I love.What did I do that was so wrong.I gave back my intentions.What more can I do?I tried to right all my wrongs.They wou..."

"Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people.A lost soul with others around you.Well thats how I feel.But I am a lost soul.But i've found the soul that goes with mine.Or I want him to be.I love h..."

"Nothing left to hold things are fallin around you. Left to yourself not that fun is it. All alone wanting needing something better than this. Living a lie needing the truth. Asking for help getting on..."

"Dear Souless Vampire, A bite mark just a little pain. Things never seem to go away. Day after day. Life and love. Thats not real. Pain is all you feel. Faithless is your heart. Let me show you faith. ..."

"Watched the blood run down my arm. As a tear rolled down my face. I knew this pain would not go away. I felt the blood get cold. I tasted it with nothing but fear. It dryed there on my arm the razor s..."

"Walking down the road all alone. I felt the rain start and knew you had come back. I feel you come up next to me. Your not really there but I know you wouldn't want me to walk alone. You've gone away ..."

"It's a black rose. Why did you give it to me? Black is beautiful why so much pain? Is it my time to go? That what this is. My fairwell goodbye rose. Goodbye love! Written April 3rd, 2002 © on Apr 03 ..."

"I've been looking for the longest time. For the one soul that could keep death away. I've found him now but I fear for loseing this soul. Fear was all I had until he came. My fear grows less with ea..."

"Lalalalala You call me cazy but i'm just singing. Whats so crazy bout me? Is it because i'm not like you. Is it cause I like pain and you don't? Or cause I can take it,and you can't? Sometimes I wonde..."

"They all tell me my pain isn't real. Its all in my head. Well in a way it is in my head. But its real no less. Its pain what more can I say. I know everyone has pain,Flea. But no one has pain like m..."

"I am happy to be alive For the first time in my life. Cause I have him by my side. Now If I have to fall. I have someone to fall too. And no matter what I know i'll be there. Whenever he needs to fa..."

"Why does life kill us so? Why can't we all live happy? I know love is in me. I know he loves me. Sometimes I stay awake. Just to ask why my love needs me? To him my heart and soul. To everyone els..."

"Injected life,why am I here? I'm only here for a little. Then I must go away again. In this game I play the bitch. Where do you stand? The know we're better thats why we win. Our pain is better than t..."

"Things aren't always going to be the same. People around you change. Do you still feel the same? Do you feel the world around you? It's still there still haunting you. I'll always be inside you. I'm a..."

"Pain runs in me. Wow it's the same as before. I didn't cut couldn't fuck things up. I knew that I would anyways but hey I tryed not to. I'm sorry I hurt you sorry for all the pain. Sometime I can get ..."

"Death Death Death! Life Life Life! We're givin life to die. I don't get the point. Written April 6th, 2002 © on Apr 06 2002 01:18 PM PST   0 • 10"

"Things come together in hopes to make it better. But like life it doesn't work like that. You get tired of people giving up on you. You try and tell them that you givin up makes it worse. But they won..."

"I hear them in my head everyday. They seem to say the same things. Wake up flea the world is waiting for you. I don't even notice when it gets dark. Its always dark in my mind so whats the different..."

"Cruel intentions evils back. I missed this feeling. Its come back to me. Pain and hate takes over as before. Just as love was killed so am I. They gave me this pain and now i'll use it to my will. Wr..."

"With Kyle I knew he hated him but I didn't think he would stop loving me because of it. I hate him now I just don't know what to think. Everyone keeps telling me that it was kyle that made him leave m..."

"Nothing but black and red I see in my eyes. Death to me I got what I wanted. I got hurt for the last time. No more pain only hate to keep me down. I've gone back to being me the real me. I let love ta..."

"What I've done wrong can't be undone. A Great love I've killed. He'll never know how much I'm sorry. But what does it matter now? I pick lust......Cause love is no longer here. I've killed love and ev..."

"In a room full of people he sat next to me.Everything going round in my head.The joke we played hurt alot of people.I could still feel him around me.That kiss that ran in me.My cuts have healed and go..."

"Emotional suicide,lost inside. Feeling pain with out needing our game. I can't believe I couldn't let myself be happy for even a little while. I always seem to push everyone away for the real love I h..."

"I grew up just a little to fast. Did things I shouldn't have. Love the wrong people. But I'm still here...Still wishing to be in his arms. So alone in my own little world. But happy again evil is back..."