Never First
By midniteblu
Nobody likes being second best. But I hate it. Competitive? Maybe. I'm just tired of never being pretty enough. I'm tired of not being smart enough. So many demands are placed on me. Most of them I heap on myself. Still, the pain is real when I don't measure up. When there's always that one person who shines brighter than I do. I'm not a spiteful person but I hate them so much right then. I hate them because they're better. And I hate them because they don't feel the disgust I have for myself. But the truth is... those people may emphasize my feelings... But the feelings are already there! Written December 20th, 2001 © on Dec 20 2001 05:02 AM PST 18 • 0 • 1
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"Nobody likes being second best...."