Z-Old Release: Ever To Be Ready

will I ever to be ready to go pack to that mindless place can I endure the empty shattered halls the pain we shared, that ancient memory stare a time ago I thought I knew you a crushing defeat a horrible realization hardened heart and no yielding to the oil every now and again I want to ramble go through and see what I can salvage but every time I near that misery place a block of ice comes over me and I cannot enter why did you leave me I loved you so and yet you turned me away with no second thought there were so many things to accomplish and do dare I ever to be ready to enter and see what I can save between me and you nothing shall ever be whole a chasm has opened never to be bridged a cry to utter tears to fall never shall we see the other to be separated at so early an age tender embrace a loss of thyroid gland what shall become of you now where shall you go who shall you meet when and if will you love a gift you destroyed a love loss rendered [rendered loss] a shout to be heard a flying flock of sea gulls to be lured a sob and shudder in the darkness nothing to be seen or felt to touch you and only you and now you're taken away a gift I never got to use, a love I never felt a hardening of the heart how could you do this to us?Written November 30th, 2001 © on Nov 29 2001 05:32 PM PST, Michael Edward London    angst • hope • humor • life • love • lyrics • pain • personal • society • spiritual • thoughts