thoughts

"all i can do is drown you out i hate the way you treat me i hate when u look at me as if i'm nothing is that what i am to u? NOTHING? take your idea of a perfect fucking life  and a perfect daughter ..."

"i wish you could see the way people look at you the way they talk about u when you're not there it makes me sick but i'm affraid i try to be a very moral person and step in and stop them all but i can..."

"when i told u i needed u you didn't know what to say when i told u i loved you you looked the other way when i asked u how u felt u said u didn't know what the future had in store u told me you didn..."

"i don't know what to do do i have this thing this undescribably scary thing growing inside of me? and if i do, what will it be how will i live with it how could i tell my parents all these things th..."

"give me the courage to do it i know the pain heals i know the pain is pleasure i know it makes me feel in controll i just want this all to go away i want to feel free     help me be free take away al..."

"sorry sorry doesn't cut it sorry doesn't take back the things you said "YOU'RE WORTHLESS", "YOU'RE A FUCK UP" no thanks sorry won't work here sorry can't take back words words are inbedded in my head ..."