One Sweet Day

What would I do if I ever lost you to Him? I would shrivel up and die. Mentally and physically not intact. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. How would I ever move on? I would sit by myself and cry. No one could comfort me. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. Where would I go to find love? Nobody would be left for me in the world. I could never get close to another. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. Who would I look up to? I would have no hero. No one could measure up to you. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. What would I do with myself? I would drift into a deep sleep. I would look at my hands and remember you holding them. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. Who would kiss me? My lips would be preserved like your body. No one could make me smile. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. How would I survive the day? I would not interact with anyone. I would hide the streaks of tears on my face. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. Why can't I join you? You are six feet under the fresh earth. My feet walk over the soil where you lay. My emotions running wild. My thoughts suicidal. I keep asking myself these neverending questions. How could you leave me? Why do I have to be alone? Are you happy where you are? Does the angel choir encircle you and sing in sweet harmony? Do they have sparkling eyes like I remember yours to be? Would you want me to find someone else? No one else can replace you for you are a unique person all of your own. I will always love you and smile when I feel your hands on my chest lifting this heavy burden placed upon me. My emotions running wild but only when I find joy in an endearing memory of you, my love. My thoughts no longer suicidal for I know that we will be together again one sweet day and join in the harmonious angel band. Written January 7th, 2002 © on Jan 07 2002 09:21 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1