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*I know it's a little long but bare with me PLEASE and THANK YOU*   Y? Do you ever think of me? Has a thought of me ever crossed your mind? Ever thought what life would've been like if only you and me were truly combined? Have you ever picked up the phone if only once to give me a call? We're you afraid that our conversation would end up all wrong? Do you ever speak of me to your friends? Does any of them even know I exist? Why are there no pictures of me inside your home? Are you ashamed of me? What do you tell the rest of the family when they ask about how i'm doing? Are you shamed to tell them that you don't know? What about my my siblings? Why do you deny them the right to look up to me? Why are you so unfair to me? Aren't you a part of me too? Why does it take a reunion or a funeral for me to be united with you? Why is it that I have to wait five years every time just to see you again? Why are there never any phone calls or letter sent here marked with your name? Do you ever think of me on holidays? What about my birthday you don't even know the dates do you? And you think that I should run and rap myself in your arms whenever I see you? Why should I open myself up to be neglected again? So you think it's right to rectify yourself  saying you're only one man? Yeah, yeah, I know you're always so busy right? I know you accepted the vow that you'll love her for better or for worse right? So why can't she hold up her end of the deal? Just to make sure she's happy you do every thing to keep her pleased am I wrong? You take care of the three kids you two made right? But tell me  do you think of me at night? Do you ever wish that you were present in my life? Do you know that you're wrong? Do you know how much anger there is instilled inside of me? NO DADDY YOU DON'T YOU'VE NEVER CARED ABOUT WHAT I THOUGHT! * (TEARS) I'm  sorry you guys! I know I lost a lot of readers with this one because it's a little long but I Feel better now that it's out! Even though he'll never read this I just feel like I lifted a heavy load off my chest.* *Written By: Lady Rage*I just had to right this after i saw my father last july for the first time in over five years! That was my first time speaking to him or hearing from him period in that long! Imagine no phone calls, letters or nothing for five years and being in your teens! Harsh huh? Written January 18th, 2002 © on Jan 18 2002 08:59 AM PST   1 • 18