~Episode One~

*Warning- About Panic Attacks, A typical one.* Episode One- Typical You're lying in bed, after a rough day, regretting things said, you were in a bad way. Can anyone relate? As you try resting, you can't be at ease, tossing and turning your body, feeling squeezed. "What's going on?" Thoughts ramble on in your tired mind like when you watch tv, flipping channels all the time. "Strange thinking?" Lying on your back, feeling in your ear, your own heart beating, you begin to fear. "What did I do wrong?" Then comes the guilt, ways you acted today and there is nothing to take it away! "I regret what I did." Scenarios run in your head, judgment is assured. You can't go back and you won't be cured. "Why do I have to feel these things?" Then comes the sweating, more than you ever did. A sound like pinnnnnnng, is heard in your head. "Oh no! Here it comes!" Suddenly in bewilderment, time seems to freeze. Thinking in apprehension, someone help me please! "OH God this hurts!" Stomach feels like a rock, cramps, spasms feeling such pain! You ask yourself this: am I... DYING? Or am I going insane??? "I can't handle this!" Then low and behold, a perception so eerie. For it seems as if, right in front of you, waiting to take you, is someone, something, very very scary! All of these things fall upon you simutaneously. Even your body feels like it's floating sinking or drowning, it becomes alienated. Most people here would go crazy- needing to be sedated. Fear Fear Fear! That is the one thing, that makes panic attacks seem, a hellacious sting! ***** Poetic Fanatic ***** Written January 26th, 2002 © on Jan 26 2002 05:37 AM PST, Thomas Crumpler   0 • 1