Here We Are- You Judge

*Warning* Hi People. Some of the images, scenes, ideas may be somewhat disturbing to some of you. This writing/ poem/ story is a perception based on my personal beliefs and experiences. This Poem Speaks of one possibility of after our death! If you still want to proceed, I hope you enjoy this and that it might give lifts to the many troubled souls out there. :0) PF Tommy (It took me months of inner wrestling to draw courage for this.) Here We Are- You Judge Here we are, in this very strange place, gathered together. We are all awake after a short season of sleep- It was our death and we know, but we are lost. What does this place mean? I see the people I love and people I didn't like, yet everyone is happy, knowing we're alive again, Everyone is so excited- the greatest celebration, for we're now past death! (there is no bickering, it's a friendly atmosphere, between people anyway.) All around, it is dark, blackness drapes over, as a starless midnight- (It looks like a theatre) Lightning flashes often, in a fierce rage, randomly, but it's still very dark, yet I can see everyboby. There's a surprise ahead, waiting for many people. We know we aren't dead, we saw, loved ones saying, heartfelt final goodbyes, Yet, we are here, how? My mind's baffled as I go retracing my last memories before I arrived here. Oh, it hits me like a brick! Here we are, the great room. Others notice and are scared, but they can not move at all. They hide their heads floorward, in shame and terrible dread. Under our feet looks like nothing is there, a smoothe surface made to look transparent as, a refined crystal glass. I look down and see many unfamiliar constellations. The earth, moon and sun, all of them are just gone. We are talking and hearing, How is this, I wonder when, my mouth doesn't even open? There is such great suspense, lingering like a foul stinch. A Great silence awes us all, no one dares utter one word, I'm rambling in my mind. Many Questions and answers are coming through so fast, we know what the scene is. Faces, are etched in my mind, so frightful like nothing I've ever seen in my days. We're all just looking inside, ourselves of who we are. I'm feeling terrible, also I'm wondering if I'll be ok. I know nothing's in my control. A name is called in a huge, thunderously loud voice, it began with a Z, but I can not pronounce it. Now a man steps up and, in a soft, shaking voice, He just says, here I am. and another voice says: Review. The curtains unscroll, a huge movie screen shows and it plays the man's life, as if in a cinema theatre! I see him being born, I see him at school, he was to other children, being a little cruel. I see him get married, I'm wondering how it's going so amazingly fast, as if? That's it! Like a dream, But how? Oh, time is no more! It's back to the beginning, the man died and it is over- The screen goes black and that same man turns away, he says, I am so sorry, I tried really hard. So the voice replys saying these words: "Enter in, your joy my precious son, share in my glory, your labor's well done. Though you failed often, it is plain to see, you held your faith keeping your eyes on me. Now as I promised, as you did your best, your reward is ready, eternal happiness, The reason, I told, of how it could be- Perfection in faith, covered by grace, is enough for thee. Go in, tarry for me. He is fortunate for, a huge silvery, blue door opens wide, we finally see something, fantastically wonderful! As it opens, a brightness beams through, lighting this whole dark place! The ray is enormeous, bigger than a house with blinding whiteness our eyes can not take, but it's so beautiful! Music is heard in that place, I never knew of such type, it is wonderfully magical, I feel to be drawn there, but knowing no, not just yet. Another name is called, another life is playing, but sadly, it's going much faster, this man can not raise his eyes to face any part of the scenes. He is told to step over on the left side... over there, wait and all will be clear. I can not detect where he went. More scenes are playing and each one seems to be going quicker, faster and faster and faster, now, I hear my name called out. I am very hesitant to answer, but I know no way out of this, so I speak up saying here I am. I hear (like thousands of times) the word, Review. This time it is different, for I was hoping many made it, but this time, I thought about something else- I am engulfed by all the bad things I've done in my whole life, the good things have completely escaped me. With these troubling thoughts and now, I see my whole life, being played before me and everybody left who ever lived! There I am being born, I gave my Mom lots of pain. Then my school days and I was the rebelious type, for I was in pain often and I lashed out, trying always to be the tough guy. I see myself praying to be freed from my misery and I did night after night for so many years. I see my deliverance when I reached fifteen years old. I celebrated and I was ready to make the whole world mine, but I forgot the promise I made, to God, to be a good person. I fell into a pit of corruption, I was irresponsible, ungrateful, inconsiderate, contemptible, vulgar, reckless, profane, barbaric, selfish and I had so many other bad qualities. I see my call to change and I see my new life unfolding, from terrifying to gratifying. I found peace and pleasure, in living by the only guide, perfect to rule over my life. I see though I did many times, not as well as I could have, for I left things undone that I needed to do and I see things I did, that I should not have. I see good things I did that I forgot about (why do we recall the bad things so well?) Now, here I am so helpless at the mercy of the court. The scenes are over and just like that first man, I am lowered and ashamed. There is a disturbing silence and my mind is going amok, filling of crushing guilt. Oh, this stillness is dreadful, I ask myself with a big gulp, (because, everything is uncertain) "did I show my faith till death"? This is the moment we all face, it seems I'm waiting and waiting, each thought gets worse and I'm so terribly worried. If only I did this, if I would not have done that! I could have done so much better in my pursuit to live right with God and men. Finally, thankfully I hear these same loving words from Him that speaks. "Enter in, your joy my precious son, share in my glory, your labor's well done. Though you failed often, it is plain to see, you held your faith keeping your eyes on me. Now as I promised, as you did your best, your reward is ready, eternal happiness, The reason, I told, of how it could be- Perfection in faith, covered by grace, is enough for thee. Go in, tarry for me. The door opens and I'm stepping in, I feel such love and peace and joy, perfect harmony, it's like I am being hugged, lovingly and blissfully by my Almighty God! It feels like I've died and went to Heaven! Written January 1st, 2002 © on Jan 01 2002 06:50 AM PST, Thomas Crumpler   0 • 13