Manic Depression

XXXXX WARNING XXXXX- This write has very disturbing imagery. Unless you know of manics, I'd suggest you read something else. PF XXXXX WARNING XXXXX I said warning, this is not me now, but it was a long time ago.......... Manic Depression Apathy is a relentless nemesis, To always strive for excitement, another thrill for another day, cocaine highs or heroine lows... In the mind, briliantly bizarre thinking commences, no fences. Is this genuis, is it insanity? Fear everything, fear nothing! Norepenephrine, Epinephrine, Seratonin surge brain and blood and would you feel like a god? Paranoia is ever, always present, other demons, too many to mention. Delusions, illusions, confusions, what the heck is real anymore or is it just a neverending dream, not waking up, only getting deeper. Floating, sinking and thinking, supreme powers, war in your head. Feels like Heaven, feels like hell and tomorrow, whoever can tell? Normalcy, non-existent, unobtainable. The world can crush every once of breath as if, squeezed to death. Only God can help you survive now. There are those who see death as the only possible route out and you might think... crazy huh? ***** Poetic Fanatic ***** *I've seen this at places and I'll just say that if you feel any of these things, it is my plea that you get help. Sometimes, ample sleep, a better diet and changes in lifestyle might rectify most of these symptons. It is a fact that bi-polar occurs because of a brain chemical imbalance and if you go on with your life without getting help, you will forget what you were and nobody will remember. PFNot sure about the right spelling of the 3 endorphins. Your brain has countless of them. Lack of lithium in your blood can trigger symptons. Bad diet, sleep deprivation and other things also contribute. I've witnessed all of this... as I said I have a testimony and yes, now Thank God and that I got help a long time ago, I am completely well. I still have some pain, but pain is nothing compared to this! PF A sharp mind can never forget!!!!! To you who suffer, this is not just my personal symptons as I have talked to others at the time long ago when I dealt with this! Denying it will not make it go away!!! Written April 2nd, 2002 © on Apr 01 2002 04:20 PM PST, Thomas Crumpler   0 • 12