A letter never sent

I know that it's not you, for my heart, it tells me so. No sparks, or butterflies and no magic, that much I do know. And I can't be with just anyone, on a road that takes us nowhere, for life, it is so short, So please try to understand, it is not up to me, for you can not tell a heart what to feel, or who to love, just as I can not tell it who not to love, or who not to want. It is beyond my control, for my heart, it controls me, and with a little bit of wisdom mixed in, I am hoping for the best. I see my dreams and I'm sorry, but you are not in them, so how can I let you know? I do not want to hurt you, but I can not lead you on. The endless kiss we shared on New Years Eve, it lasted much too long, and it had me praying that it would end, but you just kept hanging on, and you must have thought you found your dreams come true, in my lips, but it was only in your heart. You see, I save myself for the one in my dreams, and pray that she will one day come to me. So you dream, and I dream, as does the world, but you are not my dream, therefor I could not be yours. If you were the one, my heart would have already let me know. So lets try to understand, and not destroy our friendship, for I do value it so.I could not say these things that would hurt this friend, but her false hope, I know, may do just as much damage. So what to do? Written January 1st, 2002 © on Jan 02 2002 05:00 AM PST   0 • 10