A River of Tears

So strong my love for her. Stronger day by day. So long my love for her. Over the years. Stronger day by day. A love so real, so very real. So strong my passion for her, my desire for her. So real. For so long my love for her goes unanswered. The hardest thing I ever had to face. Losing her. So much pain. So much sorrow. To think that none of it was real for her. To think that it all means nothing to her. Nothing at all. So much sorrow. So much hurting. Tears erupting from the very bottom of my soul. Tears in the morning. Tears in the night. Waking in the middle of the night to tears. Tears driving down the highways. So many tears, an endless supply. My heart drowning in a sea of tears, tears and pain. So much pain. So many reminders of what once was. So easily the tears flow as the memories are relived in the minds eye. So many little things triggering the memories, triggering the pain, triggering this endless flow of tears. This "Trail of Tears", leading me to my heart, cleansing my soul. Can these tears ever wash away this terrible pain? I say "No", they only serve to dilute it for a short time, till something triggers my pain again, reminding me of what once was, now lost forever. Written August 12th, 1996 © on Oct 12 2001 05:56 AM PST   0 • 1