The Turning Point

Some say you can never go back, while others believe you can. I've found one thing to be true. It takes two to get there. There was a time that I could have gone back. I would have done anything in the world to try to patch up my broken dreams. My family, it was my dreams come true, my world, the meaning of life as I knew it, and it was all I ever wanted. I discovered what was wrong and thought, if given the chance, it could be fixed. There was no chance given. It would have taken the work of both, but both weren't willing. It has always taken two to make or break a marriage. I tried too late, and I tried alone, destine to fail, try as I might. The lying, the cheating, the betrayal, forsaking of family, the other man, all could have been forgiven for a time. The time has passed. Her desire for a fresh start could have taken place with the newly educated me, but it was not to be. The winds of time had blown her heart out of my reach long ago. It was hard for me to understand how this could have happened till now, for the winds of time have blown my heart out of her reach as well. If she wanted to try again at this point, I couldn't go back. She has taken this thing too far. She has taken all of my treasures and given them to another, her love, her heart, my son, my family, and my world. All that's left of what once was is the pain. The pain of loss of love and family, the pain of the lies, and the cheating, and the betrayal. I have reached my turning point. The empty hole in my heart that she has left is now in need of filling. The job will be done by the special "Angel" at the end of my search. I've become a better man because of this learning experience, but what a price to pay. When my special "Angel" arrives, how lucky we will be. We will have a Love that most only dream of. My all will be hers. I will recognize her as my life saving "Angel" and treat her accordingly. We will fill our chest with the treasures of life and live it to it's fullest. Written October 20th, 2001 © on Nov 26 2001 12:35 AM PST   0 • 10