So Alone

The other day joy filled the air.     I noticed I had everything except one.         Friends. The one thing needed for a prosperous teenage years.     Was lost to me. I had found my only happiness with.         Cassie. She I feel is the one.     But I feel this with anyone whom is.         Attracted to me. Today court was announced.     I sat there listened to the freshmen, sophomores, juniors,seniors being         Announced. I sat and waited.     Maybe they forgot me. Probably not.         Loser. I lost to...of all people, Brad Loman.     I feel like a loser.If God could only, shine his light on         Me. Blending in, something most teenagers.     Try to do so often.         1. One name, one friend, one love.     The value of 1 is often         Lost. Today I feel as if death is near.     I have no true friends. People         Wait. Wait their whole lives and never fall in love.     What the hell is?         Love? My only hope is to release the virgin child     Into the afterlife a,         Man. Sometimes I cry at night.     The phone never rings, the mail never         Comes. My Internet friends are what you could say,     Are my 'best friends'         Best/friend. I’m fucking lost and I can’t find     My way back. The world has taken me over         Won. Won me in. The chambers of my     Heart are closed. Letting NOTHING,         In!Thy poem speaks for itself Written March 8th, 2002 © on Mar 07 2002 04:15 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1