my own reality

"so here we are in a momentary seperation feeling so distraught over something we know will pass it seems as though this has become a cycle im so tired and sick of this guessing-game of a relationsh..."

"You kissing whore how dare you make yourself happy how could you my time with you was hell well why did you waste it its your own fault dont blame me for your mistakes you think your jelous rage is go..."

"im in an altered state of me im surrounded by things so familier to me but yet i still feel as though im a stranger to myself i look at the figure in the mirror and i dont recognise her who is she i k..."

"Damn! I've done it again Made a lover from a friend Why do I do this to myself I know I will only be dissapointed You will have your fun and then (like a child) will run I suppose you think I am..."

"the torture the fear living not knowing always in question fear of rejection never knowing the anwser am i? is he? could it be? oh God i fear so i cant stand living and not knowing a fear i should not..."

"shut up shut up just shut your god-damn mouth! im so sick of your never ending pointless bitching nothing you say will make a difference deal with it you are not important to me not your place not you..."