Now That You're Gone

Now that you're gone, I find myself going through each new day, just like the day before. Reliving the pain I felt, at the moment you took your last breath. Holding you in my arms, close to my heart, where you will always be, until the moment my last breath escapse from me. Each day that goes by, I wake up, and wonder why; Why it couldn't have been me? But I'm glad you don't have to feel this pain I'm feeling inside. It feels like someone has taken a razor, Torn my insides to shreds; ripped my heart out, and left a blackhole there instead. Any amount of physical pain, could never hurt as much as this emotional pain, that will never go away. It leaves me grasping at memories of you and I. There are times when something happens, I will be so excited (just for a moment), that I will be able to tell you what happend when I get home. Then the sadness overtakes my joyous moment, When I realize, you won't be there. Now that you're gone, I find myself going through each new night, Just like the night before. Reliving the pain I felt, that first night you had died. Not having you there, to hold in my arms, I go to our bed; I crawl in crying, I'm sleeping alone once again, Just like I have been every night, And I always Will be forever. Sleeping alone. Now that you're gone Written December 27th, 2001 © on Dec 26 2001 11:27 PM PST   0 • 1