My Last Mistake

I get so lost, That I just can’t believe When I see so much, it blinds me brilliantly Just one look and I’m changed forever Forever’s just a moment, As I look to the sky I wish for us together Though it’s hope that will guide me Fear has lost my way I think sometimes I’ll find one But each time’s the same Open mind and my heart Shows my cowards swarming Learn from my mistakes I thought, I could change today Fix all of my problems Or make them go away But as I see the makeup Of life and all I crave I see that I have no chance From cradle to grave If alone is the best way Why does nobody care? If they can’t see me feeling Maybe they’re just not there Sometimes I get the feeling That’s nothings in place It gets me to believing That they fear my face Then reality hits me That life I must embrace Then time itself hits me And I must leave this place Each time I will try harder I’ll get there eventually Each time hoping she’ll be there Though I try repeatedly Close my eyes take the fear in And I become so brave Not one thing left to fear in It’s my life I have saved Open eyes, and lights they crash down On my gut, on my healing They get me feeling down Next time, it’s forever FUCK IT! Well this time it is different Cos my life is in my hands Listen to me people And watch just what I do You can’t stop me I don’t feel the bullshit No more pain will I go through Right now is my moment, my luck it will come true Fear has pushed me to the limit, Now I ain’t afraid to die Listen to me woman It’s my time with you to try This time I won’t give in To fear I won’t succumb This time is forever The last of the sorrow songs! Written March 31st, 2002 © on Mar 31 2002 04:26 AM PST   10 • 0