Obsessing?

Obsessing? over me? I don't know if I can see through the window Just stop looking talking moving because I don't know how else to say it Stalking? myself? There's so much frustration building up I just want to tell it to leave me alone I can't handle what I got myself into I wish I weren't me I wish I were the loner girl with no friends just herself and her family Do what she wants to do Hate what she wants to hate and love what actually means something to her No faking or lying or making anyone cry just her to herself Make him hate me For the pain that I caused Make him hate me For his loss Only one month no feelings shown Obsessing? over me? He's clinically insane and hate it I hate feeling like it's not complete All I want is for him to know that it's over For him to walk out like he claims he used to He has to be lying is he desperate? sorry to dissapoint him I don't want him anymore these are feelings and I have no control I already knew that I want to disappear I never want to live this situation again Is he....obsessing? or can he just let it go?I don't think I really expressed all that i meant to here. I feel like dying. I do not want to be with him again, why can't he understand it???? I'm so frustrated, it gives me butterflies. FUCK! i hate this sooooo much. Written February 26th, 2002 © on Feb 26 2002 11:08 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1