silent scream

"I lean against the tree with a drink in my hand sitting there alone in my mind the wind whispering softly in my ear Looking up at the sky, bright blue and not a cloud in sight the reflection of the ..."

"Noise Nerves Pain Sludge hammer Pounding Tears Darkness Medication Annoyance Repitition Written January 5th, 2002 © on Jan 05 2002 02:21 PM PST   18 • 0 • 10"

"I am labelled a punk i sit with them those kids...with spikey hair peircings I'm not cool I'm not friendly I don't have a life and I don't have feelings I listen to shitty music I don't wear good c..."

"somebody likes me for once in my life i chase and i chase but now i'm running it all seems together now it's all falling apart it's just another guy another fuck to break my heart it feels right my ..."

"there is a gift behind the eyes behind the skin behind the heart never will i let it go i hold you close to close for you to know a blue shimmering rose raindrops                    sunshine  ..."

"Alone at night all the time stare all night by myself give me stars think all night my life is cold turn all night comfort leaves me empty let the warmth hug me close my eyes and listen to       ..."

"there's a hole in the ground over there see it? it's watching you look out it's holding you better run don't get stuck they're coming coming to get you to haunt you hide while you have time leave b..."

"Blabber on her mouth moves speaking nothing thinking meaning towards her cold blood blue blood freeze long shot understanding ramble, ramble on stop the world thinks she's good hating everybody lo..."

"Please pop that misty bubble holding me in breaking me up I swirve away I try to go through directing from there I open my face lights spot nothing but the misty bubble not being my hair nor the ra..."

"The other girls hold their heads high with their deceiving eyes i hate. behind the scenes fingers in their throats no food on the table and no life to live. I'm not like them how is it possible? it..."

"Respect for you making me stronger you're clearly beyond intelligent I know not much for we've been lost from each other just a while but now we're here and I know you once again accepting I am of ..."

"Try so hard phone calls at night just to be sure everything is all right Slippery the way they're so easy to lose Slimy makes you feel like grunge all the time Refreshing comfort is always needed ..."

"Please don't break me I know you really do love me Respectful Honest Loyal I am You are me and I am you Everyday is a new day and every old one a memory we will both grow old carry memories b..."

"About a year ago a little more than friends we had so much fun and I miss you Lying in your back yard those hot Summer days I remember your skin touching mine soft and warm as I recall The warmth ho..."

"I'm at the point there is no reason depressed again given up all being To do about it what? I know nothing Why are you staring at me like that? sometimes I'm different Stop making fun of who I'm f..."

"a million times i thank you for being at my side all of you for telling me i am not alone for telling me you care not to be afraid to be myself and let me love it's a very slow process but i'm try..."

"Neither with a waist just fingers in their stomachs The whining of the voice boxes and smiles upon their faces no room for a heart inside they're cold and black Dove feathered ravens wanted sexuall..."

"1am thinking about how i wish my life could be my future unknown my past unforgotten 2am drinking coffee's keeping me alive staring at the stars they look mysteriously divine 3am wanting a 'guy' to ..."

"A way to look inside a girl and see a real reflection a real guy who comforts who enjoys the embrace of you in his arms and the look upon your face someone who understands you completes how you feel..."

"Close your eyes sweet little baby Please don't cry sweet little baby I hope you die sweet little baby Because she won't cry she'll hold you tight and after they find you there will be another fig..."

"4 cups in the morning several more at night moviesmoviesmovies there is no social life But Friday is the day my brain changing paths a period of 12 hours holding me to believe i could soon be all ri..."

"those words you use where do you get them? why do they form there? and why do i love them? searching, searching found the person that i want and can't have you're pasted on my wall so i'm with you a..."

"I don't know how people perceive me to be but I'm not me and I'm not what I used to be Outside I'm laughing inside I'm crying, screaming trying to get out and somewhere in this body of mine I'm hol..."

"I'm so simple yes, I'm so perfect no flaws here no loss of control But my life is the reversal I have a heart and a personality but why don't I know what that means? I cry myself to sleep I write po..."

"Being there for friends friends back there for me Having little groupie parties talking in between Dust is pillowed on my phone the only good thing about it is I know I'm not alone Not that I have..."

"Why can't it be accepted it's not the same any longer no more posters no more rebellion and no more wreaking chaos I don't mind you staying the same that you always were but we're growing up in a di..."

"This funny expression I always use actually brings cheer to my life not often do i say something so simple and find myself laughing so hard I use it all the time and people may get sick of it but wh..."

"I want your hands in my hair let them slowly sweep my neck slide your lips down my chest hold me close with every breath sweet cheeks of innocense can change easily with passion the soft silky b..."

"It's waiting for you go on inside don't worry about me I'm still trying to hide For my answers aren't as clear as yours so go on be yourself what are you trying to prove I'm sorry it's not allowing ..."

"A video maze see the man in the corner I hope you do meet your life's guide He's there all the time whether known or not and he walks me around in halls of pure rot This place he says he knows but i..."

"What am I supposed to think? do I like you? how can i? how can you? I don't see it I don't understand I do not know you yet I have not held your hand Though I've seen you around I've judged and I'v..."

"I've thought about it I'm ready for it who cares how old I've thought about it I'm waiting for it so I've been told I've thought about it I'm holding around it Until the end I know I've thought ab..."

""Under the influence" I've never known it more then party. "Boy meets girl" I've never seen it more then party. "Puke 'til your eyes pop out" I've never been disgusted more then party. "Take it 'ti..."

"Said Mr.Smiley to his girl you run I step on you and smile again I will Mr.Smiley let it go says she for I'm not able to stop screaming Your stepping on my toes then on my knees when your at my hea..."

"I'm uncompletely mental I have no ending point I sit here unrelaxed at home I'll smoke a joint To the backstreets of Toronto with my money I'll go to the drug dealer's 'spot' with a gun he'll show S..."

"The old me is empty drowning in water The new me is happy happy like no other Brand new life approaching slowly and not yet knowing I hope it never ends like a river which always bends I know it'..."

"I don't mean to be who I am.I try to be someone else sometimes to make things better.When all I want is happiness.Now he's here. And I am trying hard to remember to breathe in all that I can of this.H..."

"By our lonesome nobody's here it's the noises that we fear Cover ourselves in eachother reaching out for nothing but feelings.... All I want is to be with you on our lonesome alone and true There i..."

"I know I'm not precious I know I'm not smart Basically I know I'm not perfect But I've tried I hope you know I can't see it I can't hear it and I can't taste it But I can feel it And I hope you know B..."

"It's the magazines the newspapers the computers no, it's the T.V. I feel like shoving food into your stomach strap you down tie you up and feed you You're wasting away to the strangeland blurryblurryb..."

"Red for me to hate and feel rage funny how it can also mean love and compassion This is my favourite colour (next to black without feeling) if I could paint the house red I would if I could hold you..."

"I don't see smiles I don't see laughter I see miles and oceans of pain cold hearts soul breathe in the stale city air breathe out what could be your last b re a th convulse to them, no needles no mo..."

"why do you try this hard? and how can you feel good about what you've done? it wasn't supposed to be like this it wouldn't have started it wouldn't have ended but we're here now no knowing   no stop..."

"You hold them prisoner to themselves today You know you can hear them in the washroom with their hands at the table with no food at the store buying sizeless jeans and you know it's killing you to le..."

"Sudden emotions stirring my brain your eyes are closed you look so peaceful I want you to know I can't help feeling this way about you Written February 3rd, 2002 © on Feb 03 2002 04:17 AM PST   18 ..."

"Sometimes you make me feel like   an open door with   cold air rushing through Sometimes you make me feel like   a wave of red smoke   twisting all   around your skin and sometimes you ma..."

"I'm not good enough not strong enough happy enough or pretty enough to suit you how cruel can people be? cruel enough to cause suicide? I can only be so many things so maybe strong isn't one nor hap..."

"Music is: Imagination A fantasy light A joy for new hope A world beyond the world A new person and place It is my life I live for the senseless peace of music when I open my eyes I will sing close the..."

"I was born on Monday Saw the world on Tuesday Made it home on Wednesday Cried all day on Thursday Said hello to Friday Got a boyfriend on Saturday Slept all day on Sunday repeatrepeatrepeat 2 weeks ..."

"When you feel the worst the best things happen And when you feel the best the worst things happen All of this contributes to life as a whole The love between people the pain of a break between peop..."

"Just drive me into the next level of the game no lights no corners no back alleys just straight aways Just drive me into thin air where I belong in the stars no people no worries no pain just smile..."

"My blood boils to the point of agony so I burn holes to rip the demons     a  w  a  y My blood turns to fluids so I slice a line to let the sparkles fly a  w  a  y My blood freezes 80 below so ..."

"They act like rain drops They're frozen like hail. They think beautiful like models But they're skinny like death. They like long blonde hair it looks like scraggles of straw. Their shoes 6 inches hig..."

"I feel old junkie piece of garbage old I feel new shiny glass reflection new Sludge as i sit on my couch and watch T.V after everyday of school come home to T.V. I don't want to or mean to it's th..."

"I will not wallow in   self-pity Pitiful to myself but why I don't   Understand I'm living breathing loving   and loved Depressed I will find   myself for not a reason Trasaction from     fun to ..."

"Scars on my body Danny left one over there         Luke left it over here   Bob left it right about there               Around on my back is Beau on my side is Jeremy           my right ankle, loo..."

"I thought it was real I thought it was true turns out this friendship was cold and blue I have not yet learned the truth of it all but if not soon my hopes will fall We've been through enough we've..."

"It's old but it's new and I'm dying to know are they pretending and do they think at all obviously they care or they wouldnt have written it but honestly? the story keeps changing and there's nothin..."

"did they actually say that? these boys who think they're better did they really tell me that death is more than just sexy they want it "she's so hot" as her melting breath of poison walks by hips jutt..."

"Am I supposed to feel his lips on mine? Am I supposed to feel the look in my eyes? What am I feeling? Lost, no control I can't help how I feel I don't know how I feel Someone, anyone tell what I'm fee..."