Different

I don't know what he saw in you, my father Maybe you were a different woman then But, all I've known is a time bomb With the tick, tick, will you go off? The next time I call out... Mom? Drowning yourself, in new age health In potions, and flowers Crystals will make it all go away You would say... Here you said, it's two together Just like the two of us Hold  you said, touch it you said So I did, felt it, I did, held it I did Dropped it, I did, broke it, I did You screamed, "why did you behave so?" I took it, Brave as I could.. If it were different, I'd be so careful Because, I guess I always did believe your words "Things will be different now" It was just a piece of rock, but it gave Such a brutal shock If it were different, if time could turn back Would we have everything, that we lack? We're both so different Sometimes, words hurt less than actions Silence, I can be cold as stone I regret now just leaving it alone would it have been different? If I'd just let it go Could I let you know my problems And share my triumphs? I wish it were different But it's not, I live with what I got Pushed away, I had no choice to go or stay I'd give everything to change it So it would be different, maybe we could love Or maybe, I'd be somewhere, off above And you'd have the life you planned Before I came in, and put a stand to it But it's not different, and we are different I love you, and hate you, for different reasons It's true..This one is obviously about my mother. It makes sense to me... Don't know if it will to anyone else. Maybe I've had too much cold medication(damn colds!) Written February 7th, 2002 © on Feb 06 2002 03:37 PM PST, Sharon   18 • 0 • 10