My Ninteenth Birthday

It was so big, the doctor said, "How did you not notice it before?" I couldn't answer It started ot as a normal day I was showering Cleaning my body and my soul I meant to start anew that day My life was changing Little did I know really how much I ran my fingers over my breast An felt the lump beneath my skin And my mind went blank, and then began to race I began to cry and turned the water off Here in one moment, one discovery, My life would never be the same One month later I lay on the surgery table On my ninteenth birthday I thought to myself, "This can't be happening, I'm just ninteen" But it was They told me it wasn't cancerous But that din't comfort me any They said "these things can grow back" I thought that day couldn't get any worse But then he came over and lied to me And when I confronted him, he lied again. That night in the presence of friends I cried so hard I made myself sick And they almost took me back to the hospital I just had surgery on my breast But it was my heart that needed mending After that day was over Little did I know I still had two more months ahead Two more months of hell Two more months of torture That night I hit rockbottom And I crashed right through it All on my ninteenth birthdayI want to thank Jenn, Meag, and Tom for being there that night and also Jeff for being on the phone with me through most of it. This was the scariest thing to ever happen to me in my life. Even though I survived it, I will never live to forget the horror of that day. Written March 25th, 2002 © on Mar 24 2002 04:36 PM PST   0 • 1