not supposed to be

"It takes all my effort to stay in reality, otherwise, i just another blade in the field, and while i try my hardest, i usually fall Written March 27th, 2002 © on Mar 27 2002 12:53 PM PST   10 • 0"

"i look ahead and not behind though you twitch, turn, and live bored i pace myself at a slow tempo though you stare and hope for others' eyes i look about with wonder at the sun though you find yo..."

"she eye'd me , stare so vicious my ear drums vibrated, her cry so harsh and started to grow dizzy whilst she pulled at my ears and so i let her go upon the floor where she laid, and i stared ..."

"~ u no ~ one day i was leaving a room and i came upon the door, the ones with a metal grill so u see light from outside flowing in and i saw a shadow i think and i opened the door, and it opens o..."