i just want to feel

"the pieces of my life are falling into place as they fall apart the lost loves...the once thought loves...the never loved at alls. each shiny shard of glass glinting to attract my reflection that i w..."

"Beautifully tragic in her weak embrace her eyes piercing into my soul hold a worldliness those as i am only long for the irony does not escape me something i have desired so long only lasting a sec..."

"the smell of you that lingers on my body is mixed with the smell of sex both making me want to vomit maybe if i scrub hard enough the smell will disappear and i'll feel like less of a whore even if i'..."

"my voice seems to have a mind of it's own words cross my lips before i can think about them before i can stop them encouraging your ravaging of my body all the while my mind is screaming no as i feel..."

"he used to mark me pressing bruising kisses to my pale neck as if making sure that no other man could look at me without realizing i had been claimed he used to blow rings of smoke into my eyes the ..."

"i'm only allowed brief glimpses of happiness never a full drink from it's cup glimpses of the possiblity of love glimpses of life without disease glimpses of what it's like not to be lonely glimpses ..."