the voice of control

"the pieces of my life are falling into place as they fall apart the lost loves...the once thought loves...the never loved at alls. each shiny shard of glass glinting to attract my reflection that i w..."

"Beautifully tragic in her weak embrace her eyes piercing into my soul hold a worldliness those as i am only long for the irony does not escape me something i have desired so long only lasting a sec..."

"my heart turned itself off today maybe it shut down long ago but the wall was noticed today as striving to feel even of a sliver of what i used to i let him touch me with rough fingers straining to fi..."

"the smell of you that lingers on my body is mixed with the smell of sex both making me want to vomit maybe if i scrub hard enough the smell will disappear and i'll feel like less of a whore even if i'..."

"he used to mark me pressing bruising kisses to my pale neck as if making sure that no other man could look at me without realizing i had been claimed he used to blow rings of smoke into my eyes the ..."

"i'm only allowed brief glimpses of happiness never a full drink from it's cup glimpses of the possiblity of love glimpses of life without disease glimpses of what it's like not to be lonely glimpses ..."