No Matter Where You Are

his day went on without a pause no thoughts of me, no phone calls today of all the days to forget the day to mark eleven months since we met my day went on, though i thought of him the kisses, the love, the scent of him yet today, like any other day as time went on, it has faded away i expected the phone to ring, though at least for him to tell me "Hello" but here i am sitting, still no call doesn't he even think of me at all? almost a year now, he was my heart but all at once, my heart, fell apart instead i sit here, read all his letters hoping that somehow, they will make me feel better i know that each word written wasn't a lie but couldn't he at least have called to say "Hi"? did he forget me, forget all we shared? did he forget he loved me, forget that he cared? each second goes by, i remember him well the exact moment, when in love with him, i fell our first kiss, still ever present in my mind the first time i ever, took his hand in mine the first time alone, when we made love all these memories, are what i think of i will alway remember what he meant to me and i believe the things we shared, were meant to be but eleven months ago today i wouldn't have thought things would go this way that i would be spending this day without him alone in my room, thinking about him but in my heart, my arms hold him close tell him i love him, but he already knows in my heart, i kiss him, his hand i will hold the memories we shared, i'll never let them go no tears will trail down my face my sadness will live, without a trace no one will notice that today i feel blue because today, i'm celebrating without you reading you  poetry, quietly in my head remembering every "i love you" you've said i know you are so close but so very far but my love will always reach you, no matter where you are!i know i didn't capitalize "i"... but today, i don't feel like a capital "i"! i just wanted HIM to know that i didn't forget this special day, even if he did. i will never forget it, because it meant something to me... Written March 20th, 2002 © on Mar 20 2002 12:57 PM PST    18 • 0 • 8