Awakening

Will I ever feel myself again? My tortured thoughts Broken Body Torn between two worlds Seeming happiness and bliss But only ignorance Then truth shines Extinguishing all I thought I held dear Wrapping me in its Warm embrace I pull away Feeling only resentment Will I ever feel myself again? While driving a dagger through My own heart I impale that which is closest to me Unwilling, unfeeling I grasp for the solitude of darkness Only to find empty air Once again The answer, the key Just out of reach Will I ever feel myself again? Forced to face that which I despise I find only my own Selfishness and pride Unable to release my burden I am consumed in the flames Incorruptible They burn away my outer shell of False integrity And rationalizatio n Exposing the lost child beneath Naked, hungry With no place left to go I reach forward, arms outstretched Not knowing what I will find But I discover no hatred No wrath Not even a harsh word Only love And tears Tears of forgiveness And I am reborn Not as myself But as that which I am created to be Perfected in another's righteousness Completed in another's sacrifice Made whole in another's sundering It is finished... Written November 1st, 2001 © on Apr 12 2002 03:12 PM PST   18 • 12 • 5