Knowing

All is lost, and songs can no longer save you Sometimes hiding is a death wish There is nothing left Everyone is gone or leaving and no one cares to say so long; You’ll just be deserted alone thinking back to times with those you loved And how time can change people and force desicions that effect everyone else I guess drugs were a good way out, but you didn’t have to leave me I was just a little girl knowing more pain than someone twice her age And now I must pay for your selfishness and all those who choose to follow you out of my life Well, that's what living is like, and I’ve learned, That people are punished for things that aren’t their fault But that's ok, I’ll manage alone with out any help from you, because Now I don’t want it And everyday you don’t call, write, or think of me; I grow a little more A little more bitter But hell that's what ‘adults’ are, Because they’ve seen too much and think it’s childish to believe In anything To them fairies and elves only exist in the ranting of some insane author And the only angels are second graders in Christmas pageants But I’m still that little girl Waiting in the corner by the door wearing your silver rings Knowing... Written January 20th, 2002 © on Jan 31 2002 03:16 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1