Black Roses

For so long I felt your tears your presents I feared I would once sense again. Calling to my dear priest that was also my close friend. I told him that my ex boyfriend was haunting me I lived in fear of him clouding over my memory. I don't know what he will do next or what he wont do I wished him away but he demanded to stay. I have missed him for many years and I have shed enough tears to cover the oceans bay I loved him more then anything, he's the only thing that could never get in my way. I loved his smile, and the way he would glance at me his soul was always so peacefully sleeping. Everyone I know believe its time to move on But he has control of me. I love him I believe you can only love one person in your life and no one else ever again. I would give my life for him to understand I want him there but I'm living in fear, That it might not really be him. I go to his grave, and under the stars I see an out line of his face my heart raced and I knew once again he was peacefully sleeping at ease. I tiptoed to his grave, and fell completely on my knees I had no idea I held you here, I had no idea in my mind was my own fear of loosing you. In my heart was a picture of you and me that would never be ripped apart. Then I laid one single black rose on your grave a rose I considered beautiful, a rose that symbolized our love that not death, or heaven could ever break us apart and in my mind you'll never leave but in this rose I know you'll always remember me. Written December 13th, 2001 © on Dec 12 2001 05:17 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 1