Bleach

In my veins the pain I cannot bare. My skin eats its self, And I never feel all here. I slowly decay, And never to find my way I slowly just fade in to the lost grave. I'm lost in an ocean of doubt. feathers flying through the sky and the trees blowing in the wind. The branches break apart in the winter and never grow back again. In the spring the sunlight glows. and its to late, my soul is gone, I didn't have the strangth to carry on, i was to weak, You wouldn't even listen to me speak. breaking me slowly, and crumbling me apart. poking at me with needles and pins, yelling and screaming letting these demons in. The bleach burns my eyes, and blinds my visions and tears me apart. Its a liquid that's clear. No one sees the pain, or wishes to even dare. the blood tests show nothing, They say there's nothing wrong with me. They had no idea, the bleach was growing deep inside, they had no idea I have no where to hide. I lay peacefully on the floor I hear my parents trying to ram down the door. I can't close my eyes I can't move everything blurry I can't concentrate. Its been eating at me for so long. I can't bare this, I can't bury the past of wrong. If only they could of saved me sooner I wouldn't be pushed away, If only I had the attention I craved. If only they weren't the ones always walking away, while I was walking the broken bridge of life. They rigged the blade in my side. They darkened my world and made me walk the plate of death. locked all the windows for no more air. Never did they even try to show they cared. The door opens I'm lying there, my eyes opened while my little sisters stares, in her mind questions. How could she do this? get eaten away. A beautiful girl dead pale, big blue eyes long brown hair. she did her make up for everyone to see. she's the angel, that had no meaning. The one with bleach in her eyes. The one that swollowed her pride. Written March 2nd, 2002 © on Mar 01 2002 05:13 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 1