Called Off Wedding

Sadly I look in the mirror and I see my future as a fear. I have an imagine in my head of how its supposed to be, But the man I'm supposed to marry doesn't fit the imagine I want him to be. We don't seem to click, and we never even used to. I wondered if maybe something was wrong with me, Suddenly people were pressuring me. I felt like there was nothing left for me to do, besides open my arms and act like I had falling in love with you. Everyone told me, that we were meant to be. But in my mind I was thinking of another man in memory. He's someone I had never met, But I was willing to take a chance. My future husband, doesn't like who I really am, and doesn't seem to understand. I wish it would work, but I know it can't, And I didn't know how to call it off. Wedding bells were playing in my head, while I was dreaming in my bed But when I turned to my fiancé it wasn't him, it was the one I wanted to meet, for three years. Tonight I will cry in sorrow, and swallow my fears. And hope that He will be okay, And pray that all his and my family won't turn away, When I tell them, I can't say I do, Because I do not love you. I looked him straight in his eyes, He never thought it was coming. He yelled and pointed his finger at me raised his hand high, and hit me, Just then I knew that if I had made the mistake of saying I do, I could of been hurt, much more then this. The sad part is, Ill never be with another, And hope that he will savor my kiss. I do not love him, and he will not be missed. I will look to the stars, and wish and hope that maybe! my long distance love will someday find me, waiting outside siting on the wing while its raining. Written October 25th, 2001 © on Oct 24 2001 04:35 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10