Could Of Had It All!

When there was no more Shawners, everything went still I couldn't feel my blood And nothing felt real. The angels smiled and said he was gone the harps began to play a brand new song. My heart was aching and my body was shaking. I recall the first thing you said I was lying on my bed talking on the phone And you said "oh my god its Girleo" Just then I smiled and said Yes I am. Maybe after awhile I'm not who you expected me to be. I'm more then words could describe and I cause more misery then you deserve. I lied a lot and I read your thoughts and I knew you way to well. I was supposed to show you heaven But I showed you hell. I never let you learn about me I never let you understand the meaning. Our conversations were long And we were miles away. Everyday I would whisper to the sky *I LOVE YOU* hoping the wind would carry my words to you, To think we've always been under the same sky. But things went dark lights out, in the park. And you were gone No more songs, no more dances in the rain, No more play fighting in the mud on a beautiful day. I told you a few small things about me How I lusted for blood and I would drain every drop from you. I didn't mean to bite your neck Or treat you cruel. I have magic spells and I thought about casting them over you. Your now with someone knew and still I wonder if you think of me I'm doubtful that you do, But then again I'm sure I'm a memory. I bet you think of me when it rains Or when you go to taco bell. My only wish is that the day you met me you sense hell. How your feelings over whelmed you and your emotions crushed you. I bet that made you feel well I bet when you thought about my lips touching yours, It drove you wild, I bet sometimes you could sence my smile. The thought of you gloomy Always made me wonder, why I was with you, the fact that I carry gloom, and fog everywhere I go. The thoughts in your mind sure ran slow when I told you I needed you The thoughts in your head went out like the lights in the park on that cold winter night. I have this feeling deep inside, that's burning and yearning, I think summer time will be different then now, I bet you will feel the burn, and feel the swelling of your own flesh, That's barred freshly under me. And to think we could of been together happier then ever I would of treated you so well. I'm probably the only girl that would of never cheated on you. You would of been the only man I pleased and did nice things for, I would of given you my heart my body and so much more. Your breath would have been stronger we would of lived forever together any place we wanted I had it all to give to you the only price you had to pay was a year of waiting, But you did nothing but debating over rather or not I was being honest here is a news flash for you I was being honest and you were a fool. And to think you could of had it all. Written December 7th, 2001 © on Dec 07 2001 03:01 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10