Darn Stuff

This feeling is burning and yearning.. These eyes glaring at the skin I wish to touch. My mind goes dim to these moments of lust. My lips sweet. My heart open to new experiences I have not felt. Looking for love, and happiness all in a Sexual experience. Deep down the truth is shown.. hormones growing.. Sometimes I feel cursed.. Why must I feel this way.. the desires of giving my body in sexual ways. I must have control.. I hear that the aids risk is high.. I refuse to be a slut, or die... These feelings are rough to get through they grip on, and keep on telling you.... Your horny.. you want more.. You can't get enough of what your looking for.. I'm a virgin.. and am proud to be I don't express my self sexually but still hormones get the best of me. Masturbation seems to help.. But does not help the sexual thoughts.. Thinking of someone being over you.. kissing his lips, and being true. The feeling I'll never have.. The feeling I've never felt.. can I be strong? can I remain a virgin... for only so long? I've had thoughts.. of having sex before... But with a simple kiss of a persons lips leaves us females wanting even more. We all have sluts inside.. Some let them out.. and some makes them hide... What will I do? if the time comes to? someone offering there body... and wanting to touch me... Can I remain in control? of these hormones.. that's played these tolls.. in my life? If I refuse to have sex or become a slut... will I have bitterness and strife? Written March 21st, 2002 © on Mar 21 2002 09:50 AM PST, Shelly   0 • 16