Destroyed

In my heart I feel it, But reality hasn't settled in. That my eyes have dryad, I refuse to cry or even let a tear in. I keep telling my self its okay to die, But after dying, I realize I can't fly. I release my pain and anger, in the night with a razor that bleeds, and clutters my life. I've done wrong I've committed more then a dozen sins. I'm like a feather in the wind. Who will catch me now, once your gone, I'm depending on my fear, the dead loneliness of you not being here. To think, I had it all. To think, I wouldn't step down when I was standing tall. You thought something was wrong, I never called, I couldn't speak I was in a moment of morning and peace. I didn't forget you, You were always on my mind just to far behind. for once in my life I want a perfect soul I want to drown my pains in the burning Cole. I can't hang on any longer, My bones feel strong, But I'm feeling smaller. Catch my drifting, I'm sleep walking. who knows where I'm headed to, I refuse to let go of you. In my mind your talking, Like loud voices in a crowd How did I let this happen? how did I let you down? I've been destroying my self slowly letting every little thing get to me. These days I can't remember what went wrong still I hear the loud pitch of a death rock song. What have I done? I let you go its all my fault, Its true I'm now alone. Written February 16th, 2002 © on Feb 15 2002 10:53 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10