ForEver Your Shallow Shadow

As things change I can't find the clues in my mind. the broken down dreams of things being old and never new. To think I never had the chance to meet you face to face. To feel your embrace Its funny how life plays these silly games. why must your feelings always be the same? they cause nothing but illness, the forever eating of the heart, that's turned blue. I become the shallow faded shadow over you. the person that's not there, but looks in the inside of you. Sometimes I wish things weren't real, sometimes I wish I could learn to just once not care! I'm not hurting anyone but my self, I must be so selfish to even want you... To think I had it all through the mirrors glare. So close to your eyes, to kiss your lips, to feel you here... now I'm, slowly learning to erase the pain I will never have to face. The sorrow, weepy eyes that are dying inside. I can never be by your side. Forever I'll have to hide. Ill never be the one to wake you, or hold you at night. Such little things, that ill never do to make my life alright... so many wonderful things, I thought of when I think of you. My happiness was counting on you. You were only 23 hours away. I wish I could had asked you to come, and asked you to stay. I was alone, for so long, I had forgotten to love. Tomorrow you will look in the mirror, and see my face then you will look to your pregnant wife.. and laugh at my hurting empty space.Just how i felt forthe night.... well all day.. of course this is VERY true.. and it's exactly how i feel, and exactly how i see things to be.. right this moment. Thanks for caring to read my work... Shelly. Written March 12th, 2002 © on Mar 12 2002 12:26 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 1