Gag Me

Gag me So I can not speak the pain. Refuse to listen, So I will not explain. Hang me, So I will never have a chance to take lives expense. Trace my hands over the walls of life, let my finger tips drag so gently past your palms. See the words through my eyes. Let my tongue rot, And cling through lies. Let my knees break, And fall. Do not talk of good byes. do not speak of hellos. Do not say I need help. Do not Hold me here. Please remove these arms of mine So I will not hang on till the end of time. Let these lips of mine, turn bitter and melt, Sink in to the mouth in which I regret. Let these Lies I've told, be known I AM not who you believe me to be. Let me fall easily......... I do not love you, I care nothing of you. Honestly I HATE You. I think nothing of you. My jealousy lets down on me. Excuse my anxiety. And my emotional failure of love. I am not from heaven above. Id rather be BITTER, then sweet today To make these feelings go away. I believe I express my way well. I would rather be burned in hell then say the way I feel. I can't say I love you, when you SURE as hell don't love me. I would rather bite my tongue, Then tell you anything. I would rather shoot my self with a gun and hear the bang. I don't need this. I don't need you your just an excuse of love being true.... I would rather gag my self now..... Then telling you the truth. I'm a witch, I'm a vampire. Watch your self carefully. Expect nothing... remotely.. ill become the things you hate. Ill regret the things I say, words are supposed to be used so carefully, suddenly I throw them around. I will let you down... Hang me now...... Before its to late... slame the very door, in which you've let me in. Close those eyes, before you see my sins..... Written January 10th, 2002 © on Jan 09 2002 03:39 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10